Very anxious

So it's been awhile again..sorry! Things have been going pretty well lately, besides our cars..again!! My A/C stopped and it's back in the shop. I get to pick it up today, so hopefully the air works for a long, long time now! Zach's car is in the shop again :) We are driving my dad's truck again. Zach is grocery shopping with it right now, so hopefully he can figure out how to latch the back and groceries don't fall out again! I can't believe how much we have spent on cars this summer. It's ridiculous! So Zach has decided we can get a fence! YAY! Can't wait! The little things in life make me happy! I'm imagining next year when Oliver is running around--it will be a nice play area for him and Corky! Corky was a bad boy this weekend and tried to bite Zach while he was playing with Oliver. On one hand, it's kind of nice to see he is protecting Oliver, but on the other, it was Zach..Corky KNOWS him! So Petey left last week...THANK GOODNESS! The house was soo full of his hair! I did a deep cleaning after he left and boy did it feel good! Oliver has been doing great! Such a big boy! He is holding his head up sooo well! I get so smiley and proud when I see him looking up at me! Yesterday he went into his new pool for the first time! He was so cute in his sun hat! He didn't really know what to think of the pool, but I think he'll like it more and more as he can sit up on his own. We went and visited Zach's family up in Kendallville yesterday. Everyone was so happy to see Oliver, us they could give or take:) Just kidding. Some of his relatives hadn't seen Oliver though, so they were fighting to get time with him! Even the little kids were trying to get Oliver! Oliver did so well though with all the new people and unfamiliar nap areas. Soooo I go back to work Wednesday and I am DREADING it! I have had a break down every day now. I even broke down at our daycare orientation! I don't know how I'm going to deal with not being with him all day! I know I need some adult time and obviously need to start contributing to the household again, but I am really upset about going back. I don't want to miss anything that Oliver does! I'm afraid he's going to be confused too and that makes me sad that he'll be looking for me! My first day I'm sure will be horrible! I hope it goes fast! I hope we only have a few patients so I can organize back to my liking (Spencer has already said I'm going to go crazy with how the supplies are stocked) instead of staying late to get it back in order. I need to get home to Oliver ASAP! I hope Zach's mom does ok as well. I'm not worried about her care/love for him at all. It's just not me! :) I'm worried his little routine we have going on is going to get all messed up and the nights may get poopy when I really need him to be STTN now. Guess only time will tell. Wish me luck!

A little delayed...

So this weekend was pretty good. Kinda stunk that Zach had to work! Sunday I went up to Zach's parents' house with Oliver because his sister was in town with her family. Had a pretty good time..food and family always makes for fun! I think Oliver thought there was too much excitement because he didn't really want to nap much! Zach came up after work so he was able to visit with them as well! Yesterday my mom came down. She had been out of town all week so she was coming to pick up here dog we were watching and see little Oliver! Oliver missed his grandma! He was so excited to show her his new talent...rolling over from belly to back!! I had found him this way twice, but yesterday was the first time we actually all witnessed it AND got it on video! Such a big boy! I am getting soo anxious that I go back to work in a week! I think I have had a breakdown every day :( I hope this new PRN job prospect for Zach works out...maybe I will get a day off! Due to a scholarship I have I can only take one day off for two more years! Not sure how this will work when we decide to have another child because we will NOT be able to afford daycare for two! Daycare is stinkin' expensive! Today has been a decent day! Busy! Cleaning the house after having my mom's dog here is a chore! He sheds sooo much! Only our bathroom left to do! Yay! Tons of laundry though! Oh well! Oliver is finally sleeping. He took a good nap this morning. Two hours on momma's chest! His second attempt at a nap wasn't as good. I think he slept like a half an hour. He just fell asleep a little bit ago in his swing, so we'll see if he was pooped enough to stay a sleep for a bit! His nights are going really well though. Last night he fell asleep at 8:30 and slept until 7. Granted, he fell asleep pretty much immediately after his bottle, but oh well! Sometimes he can't help it!

HOT HOT HOT

OMG was it HOT today! I think it was 93 degrees here. I was outside like 0.2 seconds and the heat felt like it was burning my skin off! Oliver did pretty good today with schedules! I was so proud..especially after he slept 11 hours last night! Zach's parents came down and kept me company today while Zach was at work. Ok, they weren't really here to see me, they were here for Oliver! I ordered some things for Oliver this week and they all arrived today! I was so excited! Oliver got a new mobile..so cute and matches his room well! He seems to enjoy it! He smiled when we put him in his crib and he saw it moving. I also got him the Cloud B giraffe that has soothing sounds. He seemed to zonk out pretty quickly when the mother's heart beat was played. Only problem with this "toy" is it transmits pretty good through the monitor and I can't hear Oliver breathing :) As some of you know, I feed stray cats out at our property line. When we moved in here a year ago they were tiny little kittens (three babies and a mom). They are still hanging around and love our house! We have a little dog house out for them and a place for food and water. They get fed every day and love coming to greet us while we are walking out with food! The past few times I've walked out to feed them a brand new tiny baby kitty is there. He is not shy, but definitely won't let me pet him. I've been putting out extra food so hopefully he gets some! I hope he'll let me pet him like the other kitties!

Freedom!

I got my car back last night as you all know and it made my day!! I had a Dr. appointment today that I got to drive me and Oliver to!! Felt so nice! It was at Lutheran so Zach met me there to hang with Oliver while I was meeting with the Dr. The procedure I had done wasn't too bad at the time, but now OUCH! Hopefully the pain goes away soon! After the Dr. Oliver and I went to Babies 'R Us...got in some trouble there! It was lots of fun though! Oliver has lots to show from our trip! While out, I treated myself to Starbucks and Burger King..yum! With all the spending today, you would have thought I hadn't been out in public in years! Oliver is sleeping...he went down good tonight! I think he was extra tired though so his bottle knocked him out! We were trying to not let him go to bed immediately after the bottle so he doesn't associate bottle with bed, but oh well tonight! Every other night has been a fight! Zach's sister is in town from Michigan for the weekend so I think we are going to see them tomorrow night. Should be a good time. We haven't seen them in a while now. It will be the first time they get to see Oliver, so that will be special! Zach works all weekend so we won't be able to do anything fun until evening and then it will have to be short so Fuzz can go to bed!